SICK & TIRED
I break every day, stressed out in every kind of way
I am sick and tired of being sick and tired
All I need and crave is a loud life with the power to fade
I am living because I keep it all, and I keep it all inside
Yeah, I keep it all, and I keep it all inside
Love don't work for me, I want women who are out of my reach
I am sick and tired of living all alone
All I need for sure is a big love with the power to make
more
I am living because I keep it all, and I keep it all inside
Yeah, I keep it all, and I keep it all inside
I know I'm close to the fall, I know I'm dangerous
I'm afraid I'm going down. I blame my family, their damage
is living in me
I am sick inside and tired of my life
All I need, I swear, is to go out with the power of a nightmare
I am living because I keep it all, and I keep it all inside
I keep it all, and I keep it all inside
Yeah, I keep it all, and I keep it all inside
I know I'm going to fall, I know I'm dangerous
I know I'm not going down alone
Yeah, I keep it all, and I keep it all inside
I know I'm close to the fall, I know I'm dangerous
I know I'm not going down alone
I'm not going down alone
I know I'm not going down alone
I know
THE LAUGHING WORLD
Right now, day one, I fall soft
When I fall I always fall on
Face first, head down, eyes closed, arms out to break my
fall
We fall down like a world of noise
We get lost inside the length of our own time
And the laughing world will never forget it's when you jam
that I jet
I jet
I see, I want, I reach, I fail to hold the things that I
need
I turn, I reach for you, I want to touch our life before
it fades
Like a burning car in the sun, we flame for the all in plain
view
And the laughing world will never forget it's when you jam
that I jet
I jet
The laughing world will never forget, the laughing world
will never forget
The laughing world will never forget it's when you jam that
I jet
I jet
FIRE MAPLE SONG
Turn away from the pain you don't want
Turning down to avoid them when they call
Strange words I heard a long, long time ago
I wish I could go back to a summertime I knew more than
twenty years ago
Lay between the sheets, lie underneath the maple tree
Now I can't smile
Lying down in the grass with the wind around us as we smile
and talk
Listen to your Grandma sing those country songs
She'd tell us how the maple turns to fire every four years
We'd lay in the grass all summer just to watch the autumn
come around
I can't smile. Now I live alone and you're so far away
Yeah, I call you every year just around the holiday
I still see you in the night lying above me in the grass
I can't smile
Turn away from the pain you don't want
Turning down to avoid them when they call
I can't believe this letter that says you died
I think I'm gonna go back to the house in North Carolina
and lay in the backyard,
get drunk and let the leaves just bury me, bury me
I can't smile
I don't know what's happened to me, I don't know what's
happened to me
I can't smile
PENNSYLVANIA IS...
Jackson met a girl in a valley town,
they fell into a teenage love she'd grow to hate
He's in prison now since he beat her down
He got her pregnant and she made it go away
Hey, hey, hey, hey, Pennsylvania
Pennsylvania
I got a card today from a girl I know, she used to live
alone in Philadelphia
She had to leave the state for a choice she made
She says she feels just like a hostage in her home
Hey, hey, hey, hey, Pennsylvania
Pennsylvania
Yeah, you can close your eyes, you can fall and die
You can make your laws and make it go away
You can close your eyes, but you can't make it go away
Yeah, you can't make it go away
You know, I got a call from my uncle Mike
He said he left his wife and he ain't going back
Said she changed her mind about a child desire
I asked him if he wants a placemat or a wife
Hey, hey, hey, hey, Pennsylvania
Yeah, yeah, Pennsylvania is wrong!
NERVOUS & WEIRD
You know I want to be the way you want me to,
big hearted and tall enough to cover you
I would break in half if you said it out loud
Splinter out of myself just like mercury
I think it's better now than how it used to be
You were lying in bed and I would levitate
I think it's better here, than where we used to be
I wish I could go out into the Oregon sun to be alive in
the day
I'd smile at everyone
I remember you back in '83, you were dressing insane, you
were my everything
You were so different from all those other girls
a blind Electra in drag, so cool and casually lame
I think I'm better now than how I used to be
Always nervous and weird, scared most of the time
I think it's better now than how it used to be
Always up in the night afraid to live in the day, afraid
of being afraid
Afraid to live in the day, afraid of being afraid
Now I sit alone when you're not around
I read aloud just to hear a friendly voice
I see your scary dolls. They all look at me
From the corner of my eyes I see them shake their heads
You know I want to be the way you want me to
Big hearted and tall enough to cover you
You know I want to be the way you want me to
I wish I could go out and be alive in the day
To be alive in the day. Yeah, just be alive in the day
To be alive in the day.
MALEVOLENT
Maybe I went too far this time
I just go crazy when she says no
Angel turns away, pulls her dress back down,
slowly washes her face, takes the bus to her job downtown
She said, "I'm okay, don't worry about me
" Now she thinks to herself,
"Hey, what just happened to me?"
I told him that I thought it was over,
told him that I wanted to leave
He used to touch me so nice, yeah, when we first met
I never dreamed he would hit me
Yeah, I never dreamed he would hold me down
She said, "Don't worry about me, I won't worry about
you
I don't want to be friends
" She said, "I'm okay, just leave me alone
" She said, "Don't worry about me
I won't worry about you
I don't, I don't, I don't..." She said, "I'm okay,
don't worry about me
No, I don't want to be friends. Just leave me alone
" Don't worry about me.
SPARKLE
I remember when you seemed real shiny with the sweat of
your voice,
shaky hands, super loud, and teenage mouth
We were all charmed and taken by your talk
Now I shudder when I hear the rhythm of your walk
Now I've got no place to go, I've got no place to go
I've got no one, nowhere, no one
I have given up on the sparkle that I saw in you
Yeah, I have sinned the sin of wanting more
The belly fire pulls the spirit from the corporate whore
I'm embarrassed by the plaid you wear
If I were you I'd hide underneath that stupid bleach blonde
hair
Now I've got no place to go, I've got no place to go
I've got no one, nowhere, no one
I have given up on the sparkle that I saw in you
Yeah, that simple minded sparkle that I thought I saw
I have wondered why you changed
I liked it when you were super loud
Now I've got nowhere to go, I've got no place to go
I've got no one, nowhere, no one
I've got no place to go, I've got no place to go
I've got no one, nowhere, no one, nowhere, no one
I have given it up and given in
Are you giving in? Why you giving in?
Tell me how you're giving in
RUST FUND
I know a couple who are in love living in the best of times,
a truer true love you will never know
Next to a pain they'll never realize
Sheltered from it in a loving glow
Young and happy and oh-so politically correct
Just get it if you need it now, just buy it if you need
it in your life
Don't you worry if it all runs out, don't worry because
it never will
I know a young girl living in the shadow of the kind of
life that she could never know
She takes it all and gives it back in love to handsome artists
in her native state
She is the angel of the loser and the disenchanted soul
Just get it if you need it now, just buy it if it makes
you happy
Don't you worry if it all runs out, don't worry because
it never will
Just get it if you need it now, just get it if it makes
you happy
Don't you worry if it all runs out
I know a couple who are in love living in the best of times.
LOSER MAKES GOOD
I hate waking up, it means I have to die again tonight
35 years old and I'm still sleeping outside
Yeah, I think I know your face
I don't want to know your name
I won't give in. I'm not like that
I won't give in. You say it's Christmas Eve
That don't mean nothing to me
Just another fucked up day, just another waste of time
You wonder why I live like this
Man, you just won't understand
I won't give in, I'm not like that
Yeah, I won't give in
You smart ass college fuck
Act like you think you're tall
I was just like you, had more pride than you could know
You think you pity me
Hey, I'll kick your ass if you pity me
I won't give in. I'm not like that
No, I won't give in to you. Just go away
You college boys act like you think you're tall
I won't give in, I'm not like that
No, I won't give in.
INVISIBLE
I will live
I will live
Maybe for a year or two
Maybe for a year
I will die, yes I will die, I can rest secure in that
I am awful sure that this ain't no accident
I just can't believe that AIDS is just some act of God
I will reach for you, I will reach my hand
No one will reach for me, no one will touch my skin
Yes, I will accept
I will accept my pain
I don't deserve to die like this, no one deserves to die
like this
Yeah, I get so mad that I just want to break the world
Sometimes I get so mad I just want to break the world
Break the world
I will not be denied, I will not be ignored
I am not invisible anymore
I will not be denied, I will not be ignored
I am real, I won't go away, I am not invisible anymore
Yeah, I get so mad that I just want to break the world
Break the world.
EVERGLEAM
Evergleam and I know why God is good, and Jesus loves me
Heaven lives and I know where
Sounds to me a not so easy chair
Falling free and living now, stringing out and over and
happy
Evergleam and I know why it isn't real, and I'm not going
to break
Don't die, don't give in to it, no way, no way, no way
Please don't leave me
Evergleam and I know how pulling hair and breaking voices
Spinning wheels don't give you noise
Spinning wills don't give you choices
Give away the spark inside, you give away the shining prize
Evergleam and I know how it isn't real and I'm not going
to break
I'm not going to break
No way, I'm not going to break
No way, no way. No way, I'm not going to break
I'm not going to break
No way
Evergleam, everywhere, ever weird, everyone, evergleam,
everywhere, evergleam
I'm not going away
I won't see you there, I'm not going away
I'm not going to break
No, I'm not going to break
No way, I'm not going to break
No way, no way, no way
It's not real, I'm never gonna break
No way.
