The
Freed Pig
You were right
I was battling you, trying to prove myself
I tried to bury you with guilt; I wanted to prove you wrong
I’ve got nothing better to do than pay too much attention
to you
It’s sad, but it’s not your fault
Self-righteous and rude
I guess I lost that cool
Tapping ‘til I drive you insane
I’m self-righteous, but never right
So laid back, but so uptight
Destroying your patience to tolerate me
With all the negative spirit I bring
Right, I was obsessed to bring you down
Watching your every move
Playing a little-boy game
Always with something to prove
Waiting to cut you down, making it hard to live
With only one thing to do
Cut me first, make it easy
Now you will be free
Now that nothing depends on me
Tapping ‘til I drive you insane
Now you will be free
With no sick people tugging on your sleeve
Your big head has that "more room to grow"
A glory I will never know
A glory I will never know
Sickles
And Hammers
[instrumental]
Total
Peace
All I need is one true friend
I want total peace of mind
To leave the hurting world behind
I’m not scared; I swear I’m free
It may collapse the fear
That burns to bring the worst from me
Much too smart to sound uptight
Not to cheat what I deserve
Nothing hidden and nothing wasted
So far from dead, frustrated
Too smart to ask for more
This is all I’ve waited for
Nothing hidden and nothing wasted
Nothing past the love I’ve tasted
It’s wrong but right; magic change
I finally hurt to live on up to this name
Not right; it never changes
When finally hurt to live on up to this thing
Violet
Execution
Freak-girl named Heather, I’m on my way
Countdown, puzzled; the absurd, crazed
All I need to do is fall into your well
Seduced by apparition, lower a spell
Sweet princess plays games all day
She knows the rules, needs you to play
Eternal rosebud zooming down
Red goat stands, water surrounds
Glued to set, I can’t take it all in
Heather’s amused; drillings begin
Jumping up and down in this useless waste
Fingers dance on the map in your FACE
"Agony abounds in dreams," so you speak
Legends of torture rock you to sleep
All engaged, transmit a code
Mission execution, overload
Cowering freezebag, take a shower to cleanse (?)
Flowering demoness, 3D boss (?)
Whirlpool sermon, I wish to stall
Patterns consuming, why at all?
I know sorcery, it’s miserable
I know violet teeth to pull
Lost bitch hits the switch
I don’t give a hooooooooooot
Vomit overflowing as ya charge in pursuit
Scars,
Four Eyes
Trailing on next to sick
Only broken magic sticks
Evil pins never snare
Figured out how to get nowhere
Flying lead-filled flapping gills
Phantom God in frozen time
Comfort crawls into flight
Wait for men grown, thunder dyin’
Free toes roost on dancing wire
Puzzling out a selfish high
Commandment of meadow mouse
Kiss the ground, lift up the house
Wrapped in blankets of the mother’s skin
Perpetuate a freedom
But there’s nowhere to begin
Bind one sky, ground to soil
No one could care how your blood is boiling
Grab a rubber needle, try to stick someone
Needle is inverted to a rotten heart
Simple, plain and simple
Stars for eyes
He’s eager and overripe
His tongue gets tied
Weakened by a mighty blow
Scars, four eyes
A limping "fell to stupid man"
Whose tongue is tied
Truly
Great Thing
Make it easy and I’ll hold it against you
I’m on a string dangled right in front of you
Make it hard and I’ll run away
Keep tomorrow as I kill today
Trying to figure just what I deserve
Slashing lines all across the earth
Patience only makes the dream come true
Everything I see I hold to you
Tell me, this is it—
The Truly Great Thing
The love you’ve hoped to find
Any doubt will simply wipe itself out
As we’re rising deeper the first and last time
Lift me up and drop me down again
Every day I feel confusion, pain
Love is what we’ve all been waiting for
Something powerful to smash it all apart
Can’t love if you’re locked up tight
The dream of perfection, nothing ever seems right
All the world will tell you, "You’re all wrong"
Big big deal if you’re wrong
This is it—
The Truly Great Thing
The love you’ve hoped to find
Any doubt will simply wipe itself out
To rising deeper the first and last time
Kath
I’m so glad I waited for this
Every nervous moment worth it
Every anxious wave rode through
To find me lying safe with you
All too right
Righteous coward, chicken-head waiting for a storm in paradise
Push, whine, push
To gripe to her at me
We killed the jealous; killed the judgment right
I’m so glad the wait is through
I’m so glad I waited for you
Perverted
World
It’s no drama or a hurting kind of love that never
gives
I’ve got a sister with an open mind
And the sweetest urge
Whisper, fight it; a bed for me (?)
Warmth rising to share with me
Not damaged; a restless love or just wasting time?
The wait has been satisfied
I’m not jerkin’ to lose my mind again
I’m not smart enough to fake it
No fool could fake a feeling this good
C’mon girl, let’s walk through this perverted
world
A few times; it’s too insane
A "no-trust monster" stomping in my brain
Broken solid; solid shattered
Forgot it forever and ever and ever…
Slow down to a loving pace
To the place I’d rather be
A special sister love inside of me (could be killed?)
Wonderful,
Wonderful
Sometimes we walk hand-in-hand by the sea
And we breathe in the cool salty air
You turn to me with a kiss in your eyes
And my heart feels a thrill beyond compare
Then your lips cling to mine
It’s wonderful, wonderful
Oh, so wonderful, My Love
Sometimes we stand on the top of a hill
And we gaze at the earth and the sky
I turn to you and you melt in my arms
Here we are darling, only you and I
For a moment to share
It’s wonderful, wonderful
Oh, so wonderful, My Love
The world is full of wondrous things, its true
But they wouldn’t have much meaning without you
Some quiet evening I sit by your side
And we’re lost in a world of our own
I feel the glow of your arms holding love
I’m aware of the treasure that I own
And I say to myself,
"It’s wonderful, wonderful"
Oh, so wonderful, My Love
Limb
By Limb
I’m moving on; plowing through
A violent landscape
Candlelight, oh, Devil Bride
Crisp until you break
Well I give so the ranks in fear (?)
You could not mystify
Limb by limb I’ll feed you in
I, the Serpent in the Tide
From haunted dreams her bloke did speak,
"To expand is to slay!"
A tunnel to infinity, dazzling all the way
Radiant matter’s bouncing out; thunder purified
Truer than sides, sees the lie
Laughter in the sky
There’s a cry ringing out o’er land and sea
Star-crossed our weary hearts
Absorbed for light, he set us free
WALK SO WEAK, TOO STONED TO SPEAK
I KEEP IT TO MYSELF
DON’T FUCK WITH ME, I’M HOVERING
I’M HIGHER THAN HELL
Smoke
A Bowl
If you just wanna smoke a bowl of the finest homegrown
No matter where you’re coming from
You can find my man there on the street
You can find a man that’ll peddle and you meet
Weed makes you feel happy when you’re feeling down
Oh, yeah
Weed even makes you smile when there’s no one around
Oh, yeah
It’s the weed that makes you sing when you’re…
Half-asleep, you can sing…
Bored and nothing to do
We sit
In a
Beat up old Chevy
He’ll tell ya; he’ll tell
He’ll tell ya
Yeah, he’ll tell ya
Yeah, I guess he’ll tell ya
No problem
Black-Haired
Gurl
Hey, little girl how long’s it been?
The air is thick and you’re still thin
My mind is blank so fill me in
What kind of trouble I’ve got myself in
Black-haired gurl, head full of lies
The truth is all up to you tonight
I read the letters that you sent
Your perfume well won’t catch me again
Oooooh, hoooooooo-oh
You don’t care ‘til you compete
For the affection that you cheat
I read the letters that you sent
Your perfume well won’t catch me again
Hey, little girl how long’s it been?
The air is thick and you’re still thin
My mind is blank so fill me in
What kind of trouble I’ve got myself in now
Hoppin'
Up And Down
Hoppin’ up and down
Smilin’ at the ground
I don’t like no one ‘round here
Everywhere wandering eyes
Stab me through paranoid sides
What are the odds; what are the rules?
Jumped around so quick
At a snicker, at a flinch
Back way against the ropes
In a stupid joke
Time for toast [?]
Time, too bold [?]
Time, too bold [?]
Supernatural
Force
You know she’s lost her mind for good this time
Every thought’s dragged around with a weight behind
She sees herself in need of repair
Maybe someone’ll help her lay her soul down bare
If you see the patient never compromising
Short of wonder, I wouldn’t be surprised
Her lilac breath reminds me of you
She gives a sign, doesn’t mind being stalked
Tension dissolves, she’s taking off her socks
Draws in the sky, doesn’t mind me at all
Curls up and away then the line dissolves
Without hesitation I sail the course
Exploration, a supernatural force
White eyes grow at what I detect
Pulling us both into the pretend
Glorious connection due to end
Advertising innocence floating in the air
Unearth the seed, blew it up and it scattered everywhere
Rockstar
We’re not here to crawl away
Or find blame for wasted time
Straight or high is not wasted time
Feeling true in poor Paranoiaville
Excuses are so easy
When any jerk could push you down
We got reason to learn how
Trust any reason to rise now
Turn your weakness on itself (?)
Not right for you
It’s all right with me to fight with my friends
When faith is near impossible
And trust just isn’t practical
It’s all right with me to feed on my friends
You know what, he’s got nothing to say
They just wanna be rich and say,
"Fuck those groups who get the 4 star" (?)
Nothing could be better—A rockstar
Blood-stained avant-garde popstar
Peace doesn’t underpush; exploit science, spacejam
rockstar
Rockstar
Rockstar
Rockstar
Trust any reason to rise now
Don’t let the simple truth bring you down
Money brings freedom, brings a new day
Trust any reason; get rich, crawl away
Faith is near impossible
Trust just isn’t practical
It’s not right for me to feed on my friends
Downmind
I feed on you; you feed on me
When we agree, it’s good to people
When you act frightened, I’ll make you feel stupid
‘Cuz nothing’s more stupid than thinking I’m
evil
But if you smile then I’ll smile, too
There’s nothing better to do
I’m just me-- listen to me
A old All-American original
You’re down in the mind
And don’t say I don’t see
You’re treating me badly; it’s pulling me downmind
Can’t bring me downmind, sorry-sack downmind
You’re not an only fully true sad man
Though I may seem a flaming total bitch
I’m a special friend
I’m just me-- listen to me
A old All-American original
You’re not the cool-cool
You’re just a scared fool
Thinking I’m evil & sure of your sickness
Sick just to follow; follower gutless
Mistaken for goodness
And pulling me downmind
Down in the mind; you’re sick in the soul
You’re treating me nicely; it’s pulling me downmind
I’m just me-- listen to me
A old All-American original
Renaissance
Man
Post-hardcore, pre-apocalyptic, science-fiction, drone-loving
Renaissance Man
Oh, what is true? What is real?
No bullshit, brother
Pot-smokin’ Renaissance Man
Wasted effort to stand up
Real things happen when you’re down
Soulcore worship, whirling sound
Brother, make a list, pierce your dick
Future tribal-thought & rebel, greedy Renaissance Man
Backbeat bloody conviction
Power-sludge storm suckin’ down
Violence is cool, one of two things real
Violence is free for all; live for revenge, ideal
Don’t wimp out; kill the pig
There is no doubt; kill the pig
Post-hardcore, hardass, intellectual
Drone-loving Renaissance Man
God
Told Me
This land is very small
A bum scrawl with people crawl (?)
America’s the greatest way
I’m counting thoughts; I’m counting days
Well I know it’s true, ‘cuz God told me to tell
it to you
I know it’s true; a God told me to tell it to you
This metal cuts my skin
America has eaten my cousin
Green boots and a hard green helmet
I feel so bad ‘cuz I’m left and spent
I know it’s true, ‘cuz God told me to tell it
to you (X2)
A God told me to tell it to you (X4)
Holy
Picture
Now’s the time to melt to walls
Needles and pins and a voodoo doll
With you I’ll gladly overdose
One march to snow, the heavens know
Bring me through your please-me groove (?)
Lost, bitter, pain is flowing through
She’s just a flower choked by weeds
I’ve got to try to cure my need
Obsessed with selection, I’m a boy with horns
An eyeful of reflection, I know no form
Change the infusion, do it alone
Land jeeps stammering, disrupt the flow
Close to death, foolish and trashed
Heart drawn in ashes; drink down another glass
I wish that I couldn’t stand
We could put this cyclone in a trance
Believe you angelic one, my nerves are tried
I aim to conquer and divide
I see the holy picture to know
Maybe a werewolf chewin’ on your bones
Wondering forever, uncertain of my health
Like me I saw you hiding, drowning in yourself
Scrambling my heart, trembling a laugh
You can’t fool me; you’re no pussycat
Hassle
I used to be an angry guy
But I’ve grown beyond that now
I’m gonna be somebody’s baby tonight
As long as I’m singing and that big bell keeps on ringing
I’m sure my life outside is out of sight
No more homosexual hassles
Life among the grownups is in full swing
But I’m not a swinger forever
I fully desire what I already have
No more psychosexual battles
Life above the hung-up is my new thing
And I’m gonna keep it together
I’m a walking invitation
But no one invites me
I want to be excited
But no one will excite me
No one dare invite me ‘cuz I’m waiting for you
No one could excite me any more than you
Still inside, I’m a healthy blue
‘Cuz I’m not complete with these thoughts of you
Nothing satisfies me when I’m thinking of you
No one could excite me any more than you
I have the truth, I held you
Loved you so sincere
Through all the shit-stained curtains
Our love was really quite clear
But all that you left me is the empty need
But I hurt you more evil before you hurt me
‘Cuz nothing satifies me when I’m thinking of
you
No one could excite me anymore than you
You are the inspiration, evil prince I fear
That’s not the truth, rock-hard life lying right here
It’s just a lie I told, oh…
No
Different
There is no soul; it’s an everlasting tease
In scared control; patterned easy, pleasing
Why try to understand? It’s never meant to be understood
Logic is the bottomless pit
A no-cure find; questions behind
Take what you can
Cut out the heart
Who could ever blame you, man?
Nothing’s fair, we’re all doomed from the start
No different for us
No different for us
We’re just like the others, no different for us
Can’t stop the change; the change can’t stop
Though we leave our souls for a hopeful trust
It’s different for us
It’s different for us
We will survive the change
It’s different for us
It’s not cool to fall in love
Scared and desperate in this life
Safer, cool to judge outside
Oh, to be complaining cool
Never cool, though too excitable
All that we will ever be
They don’t have to feel the pain we feel
Pass their judgment, be sure, decide what’s real
I don’t have to cry to make this real
Spoiled
Spoiled children soon to fall
Freedom is the lie we live
We will wait for tragedy
And scatter helpless to the fire
Sorry for ourselves
Sorry for the things we've seen
No one cries for help
Waiting for the fire
When all our toys are burning
All these empty urges must be satisfied
Acted outside
Precious strength to turn the game to history
Giving up, I'm blown away
He said all I had to say
The final days have come and gone
Safe inside; there’s nothing wrong
Nothing in these words
Sorry force of habit
Could it be way over my head?
Helpless to describe it
Could it be way over my head?
Helpless to describe it
Could it be way over my head?
Helpless to describe it
Dumb & cruel
Cut before it's grown
Lies so forced in bored control
It learned all that it cares to know
As
The World Dies, the Eyes Of God Grow Bigger
Descended from Emerson, into this life
Falling, falling, falling into my seventh life
My father rode a motorcycle naked in the rain
Mother, a flower girl, blonde and 18
Three long days in the Colorado jail
Seven months pregnant, on the western trail
She met El in San Francisco, so it goes
(She met El in San Francisco, yeah so it goes)
Elwyn was out of his head, speed up his nose
Mother met a second man, by chance
She remembered from a hometown high school dance
The night they got to fighting, man’s arms, they let
me fall
My head hit the concrete floor, I didn’t move at all
My mom hysterical, thinking I was dead
She ran into the street, scared out of her head
I watched the stars in the heavens for a while
Then I came around for good, but not with a smile
Moved home to the valley where the hippies conspire
Even my grandma loved to get high
My father dosed liquid LSD
Fried his mind for years to come, look what it’s done
to me
The breakup ensued, I held my baby brother’s hand
I held my baby brother’s hand
The nights that followed, footsteps could be heard
(The nights that followed in the house, footsteps could
be heard)
No one on the second floor ‘cept spirits I have learned
Mom and her best friend said, "It’s time to go"
To Aroyo Hondo, New Mexico
Adobe huts, I recall every gathering adobe
I was hungry in the desert; I wanted to go home
Morning I awoke; I was all alone
(But I walked outside I realized)
No one but a fucking geek to share the dusty home
(No one was there; I thought I would die)
As I walked outside I realized
(Time stood still; I watched the dome)
No one was there; I thought I would die
(Then the bug came back, tears in my throat)
Time stood still as I watched the goat
(Next thing I knew I was in public school)
The nurse of a new bug came back; tears in my throat
(It wasn’t much, but it followed the rules)
Next thing I knew I was in public school
(Sat alone; stood alone)
It wasn’t much, but it followed the rules
(Tried my best to understand my broken home)
Sat alone; stood alone
(I got to watch my poor mother cry)
Tried to understand my broken home
(Empty, exposed to all she felt inside)
I got to watch my poor mother cry
(And then I hear these hippies philosophize)
Empty, exposed to all she felt inside
And hear these hippies philosophize
And dreaming of the commune in the sky
(Too many changing partners at different times
Brothers and sisters, don’t get too close
And dreaming of the commune in the sky
And mother waves him goodbye, so I’m left here on my
puzzle with nobody’s help)
Boycott society, then the kids can’t socialize
(My faith is my strength, living in hell)
We had a cat named "Hope" and soon it died
(Thinking about our locks too thin, wondering if I’m
at all like him)
There were nervous breakdowns every day, numerous crises
games
(Before the flood, before the flood, of blood, I’m
dead serious, you just you wait)
Parents like to play, too many changing partners
(The Nazi Klan looked like 6)
At different times
(The plan is well underway)
Brothers and sisters, don’t get too close
(Those who crossed me are cursed, will see fewer days)
Another routine goodbye
(You’ll listen to me; let’s kill in the street)
So I’m workin’ on my puzzle with nobody’s
help
(You made a big mistake so just you fuckin’, livin
in hell, El)
My faith is my strength because I’m living in hell,
thinkin’ about hell,
Locked in the bin, wondering if I’m at all like him
Before the flood, before the flood of blood
I’m dead serious, so just you wait
The Manson Klan will look like saints
(The Nazi Klan will look like saints)
The plan’s well underway, those who crossed me will
see fewer days
(The plan’s well underway, those who crossed me are
cursed)
You’re wastable to me; you’re roadkill in the
street
(Just you wait, you will see fewer days)
You’re so wastable to me, like the roadkill in the
street; you made a big mistake
(Satan)
So just you fucking wait
(Satan)
Blood on the walls; blood on the walls
(Satan; Satan)
Dear friends, goodbye, needlessly you fuck with me; now
you’re gonna die
Blood on the walls; blood on the walls; blood on the walls;
blood on the walls; blood on the walls; blood on the walls;
blood on the walls; blood on the walls; blood on the walls;
blood on the walls
(Satan; Satan; Satan; Satan)
