Plainsong
"I think it's dark and it looks like rain"
you said "and the wind is blowing like it's the end of
the world" you said "and it's so cold it's like
the cold if you were dead" and then you smiled for a
second.
"I think I’m old and I’m in
pain" you said "and it's all running out like it's
the end of the world" you said "and it's so cold
it's like the cold if you were dead" and then you smiled
for a second
sometimes you make me feel like I’m living
at the edge of the world like I’m living at the edge
of the world "it's just the way I smile" you said
Pictures of You
I’ve been looking so long at these pictures
of you that I almost believe that they're real I’ve been
living so long with my pictures of you that I almost believe
that the pictures are all I can feel
remembering you standing quiet in the rain
as I ran to your heart to be near and we kissed as the sky
fell in holding you close how I always held close in your
fear remembering you running soft through the night you were
bigger and brighter than the snow and screamed at the make-believe
screamed at the sky and you finally found all your courage
to let it all go
remembering you fallen into my arms crying
for the death of your heart you were stone white so delicate
lost in the cold you were always so lost in the dark remembering
you how you used to be slow drowned you were angels so much
more than everything oh hold for the last time then slip away
quietly open my eyes but I never see anything
if only I had thought of the right words I
could have hold on to your heart if only I’d thought
of the right words I wouldn't be breaking apart all my pictures
of you
looking so long at these pictures of you but
I never hold on to your heart looking so long for the words
to be true but always just breaking apart my pictures of you
there was nothing in the world that I ever
wanted more than to feel you deep in my heart there was nothing
in the world that I ever wanted more than to never feel the
breaking apart all my pictures of you
Closedown
I’m running out of time I’m out of
step and closing down and never sleep for wanting hours the
empty hours of greed and uselessly always the need to feel
again the real belief of something more than mockery if only
I could fill my heart with love
Lovesong
whenever I'm alone with you you make me feel
like I am home again whenever I’m alone with you you
make me feel like I am whole again
whenever I’m alone with you you make me
feel like I am young again whenever I’m alone with you
you make me feel like I am fun again
however far away I will always love you however
long I stay I will always love you whatever words I say I
will always love you I will always love you
whenever I’m alone with you you make me
feel like I am free again whenever I’m alone with you
you make me feel like I am clean again
however far away I will always love you however
long I stay I will always love you whatever words I say I
will always love you I will always love you
Last Dance
I’m so glad you came I’m so glad
you remembered to see how we're endeding our last dance together
expectant too punctual but prettier than ever I really believed
that this time it's forever
but older than me now more constant more real
and the fur and the mouth and the innocence turned to hair
and contentment that hangs in abasement a woman now standing
where once there was only a girl
I’m so glad you came I’m so glad
you remembered the walking through walls in the heart of December
the blindness of happiness of falling down laughing and I
really believed that this time was forever
but Christmas falls late now flatter and colder
and never as bright as when we used to fall all this in an
instant before I can kiss you a woman now standing were once
there was only a girl
I’m so glad that you came I’m so
glad you remembered to see how we're ending our last dance
together reluctantly cautiously but prettier than ever I really
believed that this time it's forever
but Christmas falls late now flatter and colder
and never as bright as when we used to fall and even if we
drink I don't think we would kiss in the way that we did when
the woman was only a girl
Lullaby
on candystripe legs spiderman comes softly
through the shadow of the evening sun stealing past the windows
of the blissfully dead looking for the victim shivering in
bed searching out fear in the gathering gloom and suddenly!
a movement in the corner of the room! and there is nothing
I can do when I realise with freight that the spiderman is
having me for dinner tonight
quietly he laughs and shaking his head creeps
closer now closer to the foot of the bed and softer than shadow
and quicker than flies his arms are all around me and his
tongue in my eyes "be still be calm be quiet now my precious
boy don't struggle like that or I will only love you more
for it's much too late to get away or turn on the light the
spiderman is having you for dinner tonight"
and I feel like I’m being eaten by a thousand
million shivering furry holes and I know that in the morning
I will wake up in the shivering cold and the spiderman is
always hungry
Fascination Street
oh it's opening time down on fascination street
so let's cut the conversation and get out for a bit because
I feel it all fading and paling and I’m begging to drag
you down with me to kick the last nail in yeah I like you
in that like I like you to scream but if you open your mouth
then I cant be responsible for quite what goes in or to care
what comes out so just pull on your hair just pull on your
pout and let's move to the beat like we know that it's over
if you slip going under slip over my shoulder so just pull
on your face just pull on your feet and let's hit opening
time down on fascination street
so pull on your hair pull on your pout cut
the conversation just open your mouth pull on your face pull
on your feet and let's hit opening time down on fascination
street
Prayers for Rain
you shatter me your grip on me a hold on me
so dull it kills you stifle me infectious sense of hopelessness
and prayers for rain I suffocate I breathe in dirt and nowhere
shines but desolate and drab the hours all spent on killing
time again all waiting for the rain
you fracture me your hands on me a touch so
plain so stale it kills you strangle me entangle me in hopelessness
and prayers for rain I deteriorate I live in dirt and nowhere
glows but drearily and tired the hours all spent on killing
time again all waiting for the rain
The Same Deep Water as You
kiss me goodbye pushing out before I sleep
can't you see I try swimming the same deep water as you is
hard "the shallow drowned lose less than we" you
breathe the strangest twist upon your lips "and we shall
be together..."
"kiss me goodbye bow your head and join
with me" and face pushed deep reflections meet the strangest
twist upon your lips and disappear the ripples clear and laughing
break against your feet and laughing break the mirror sweet
"so we shall be together..."
"kiss me goodbye" pushing out before
I sleep it's lower now and slower now the strangest twist
upon your lips but I don't see and I don’t feel but tightly
hold up silently my hands before my fading eyes and in my
eyes your smile the very last thing before I go
I will kiss you I will kiss you I will kiss
you forever on nights like this I will kiss you I will kiss
you and we shall be together
Disintegration
oh I miss the kiss of treachery the shameless
kiss of vanity the soft and the black and the velvety up tight
against the side of me and mouth and eyes and heart all bleed
and run in thickening streams of greed as bit by bit it starts
the need to just let go my party piece
oh I miss the kiss of treachery the aching
kiss before I feed the stench of a love for a younger meat
and the sound that it makes when it cuts in deep the holding
up on bended knees the addiction of duplicities as bit by
bit it starts the need to just let go my party piece
but I never said I would stay to the end so
I leave you with babies and hoping for frequency screaming
like this in the hope of the secrecy screaming me over and
over and over I leave you with photographs pictures of trickery
stains on the carpet and stains on the scenery songs about
happiness murmured in dreams when we both us knew how the
ending would be
so it's all come back round to breaking apart
again breaking apart like I’m made up of glass again
making it up behind my back again holding my breath for the
fear of sleep again holding it up behind my head again cut
in deep to the heart of the bone again round and round and
round and it's coming apart again over and over and over
now that I know that I’m breaking to pieces
I’ll pull out my heart and I’ll feed it to anyone
crying for sympathy crocodile cry for the love of the crowd
and the three cheers from everyone dropping through sky through
the glass of the roof through the roof of your mouth through
the mouth of your eye through the eye of the needle it's easier
for me to get closer to heaven than ever feel whole again
I never said I would stay to the end I knew
I would leave you with babies and everything screaming like
this in the hole of sincerity screaming me over and over and
over I leave you with photographs pictures of trickery stains
on the carpet and stains on the memory songs about happiness
murmured in dreams when we both of us knew how the end always
is
how the end always is
Homesick
hey hey! just one more and I’ll walk away
all the everything you win turns to nothing today and I forget
when to move when my mouth is this dry and my eyes are bursting
hearts in a blood- stained sky oh it was sweet it was wild
and oh how we...I trembled stuck in honey honey cling to me
so just one more just one more go inspire in me the desire
in me to never go home
oh just one more and I’ll walk away all
the everything you win turns to nothing today so just one
more just one more go inspire in me the desire in me to never
go home
Untitled
hopelessly drift in the eyes of the ghost again
down on my knees and my hands in the air again pushing my
face in the memory of you again but I never know if it's real
never know how I wanted to feel never quite said what I wanted
to say to you never quite managed the words to explain to
you never quite knew how to make them believable and now the
time has gone another time undone hopelessly fighting the
devil futility feeling the moster climb deeper inside of me
feeling him gnawing my heart away hungrily I’ll never
lose this pain never dream of you again
